~~my little world~~

~~~hOt TemPer~~~~

Again and again...HOT TEMPER....
i should not speaked so loud wif my lovely mum...I SHOULD NOT...
but....im lost of control when she called me during my sleeping time and talked something that i not like...
after ended the call start to feel regret for what i did...
i wanna say sorry wif her but i not dare to call back her.....im not usual to do this kind of thing especially to my lovely family...but now it makes me not feeling well at all....

WHAT SHOULD I DO????

i know she also has the same feeling now as me as i speak so loud wif her....
she sure will feel sad d...but i reli not dare to say sorry wif her le...
haiz....it makes me regret wat i did.....

so i just can say here...Mummy sorry for wat i did...i shd not talk so loud wif u d...is my fault..reli sorry...

HOT TEMPER makes me crazy sometimes but i ed try my best to change it...
however, sometimes reli lost of control d...haiz...
i think i shd totally change my hot temper d...

To my parent:
SOrry for everything dat i did that have hurt both of u...
i will try my best to change it...give me sometimes...
i really feel glad to have both of u as my parent d...
I LOVE U MUMMY N DADDY and ALL MY SIBLINGS...

Today,i was like normal days click into my mail box and saw a mail with the title of "从生日判断你是什么脾气‏"..

With the wish want to know whether it is true or not, thus i have clicked into this mail and scroll down to search for my birthday day...

when found my birthday day then i was carefully read through the details and i found that it is really accurate..

all the words is describing me with none of it that make me feel is incorrect...
this is what has described me..

==>>不笑的时候，显得冷酷与淡漠，其实内心隐藏热情，具长辈缘，也会得同辈与晚辈的喜爱与拥戴。不过，因为完美主义的倾向，而考虑太多难以下决定。对于讨厌的人，会毫不保留地加以唾弃，讨厌不公平的事情发生。

especially 对于讨厌的人，会毫不保留地加以唾弃 so better don't be a person that i hate~~!!!haha...

yet i'm wondering really can determine a person just from birthday day??
however, if you really know well about me sure you will agree with the above blue sentence which is describing me..but it seems like excluded one more sentence ed.."is a lazy boom"~~~!
haha..

there is different type of human being in our world~~
actually i olso do not exactly know how many type it's exist in our world.. i have a very BIG question mark for this question!!!
however, i can see that there is few types of different people that are surrounding us..
these can be categorized into :
1) a person who really treat you as he/her best friend and without any motive.
2) a person who treats you as friend with a motive.
3) a person who is acting as your best friend in front you but talking your bad things behind.
4) a person who acts as a good person in front of someone.
5) a person who likes to act at everytimes.
6) ....etc
The first type of people is worth to be treated as best friend, BUT as we know it's quite difficult to have all friends which are under this categorized. This is because every human is selfish, they just care about themselves and do not think about others.
Furthermore, some people treated you as good friend is caused you got the value for them, and when you are non-value for them, they will just kick you away. This type of human is not worth to be treated as good friend and we should have a distance with them. Sometimes most of us will meet a friend who is acting as our good friend but they are talking your bad things with other and do anything that injur you. Most of this happened when they are jealous with you,especially when you have a good relationship with someone. At this time, they will keep talking about you with other or even with your best friend. They purpose is to break down your relationship. Therefore,must be aware of this type of people. Unfortunately, we do not know whether someone is fallen under which categorized before be friend with them, as we just can see their real face after as a friend~~!! This is the most scary thing in the world~~
I'm very curious why got so many type of people?? why they cannot treat everyone equally or fairly and why must break other relationship. The BIG question for me is non the above at all, the above is just a small question mark for me~~@@

the big question mark for me right now is " WHY MUST A PERSON ACTING TO LET OTHER FEEL HE/SHE IS A GOOD PERSON"..That's why sometimes i prefer to be alone but for me i cannot live without any friend...Lucikly i got my best friend, who i know they wont do anything that will hurt me~~!! i really love them~~~

-finally-

finally, im a last year student ed...
when in foundation, i keep thinking of::
-can i finish my foundation?
-will i pass all the paper with no resit and repeat?
the same questions keep pop in my mind that force me to study hard...
and with the "ri lian da sheng ren" bless..i was passed my foundation with the a not bad result..

after in degree...
the same questions were around me~~!!
-when i will graduate?
-hope that i will graduate next sem?
-when see all the senior friends graduated, i feel happy for them?
-..........
these all questions make me to faint....but finally now in year three ed..
actually quick happy..@_@

so last year ed...i need to fight with all the papers~~!!
now, the thesis make me sot ed..
actually, i duno wat to do with this thesis~~!!
where should we start?
wat topic should we do?
really is a Blank~~QQ
haiz...
hope i can get a topic soon...
and successfully finish dis thesis...

ChaRlie gambate!!~~
kerpei,teoh n phaik yin let us gambate together ya..
all the best in the future~~!!

妈的身体越来越弱了。。
该如何是好呢？
我能帮的就是帮她顾店。。但只能在星期五，六和日。。
现在工人又要回了，没人能和她一起了。。
真是烦人。。
为何什么事情都发生在我家能？
我还是个学生，没钱。。什么都帮不到。。
为有努力的读书。。
还有一年多我能顺利的毕业吗？（笨蛋的我）。。
好想。。马上毕业。。酱就能减轻她的负担了。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
烦人！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
乌龟的哥哥。。
为何另个哥哥可以自己赚钱，不会害家人。。
为何你就不能呢？？
为何。。。要好吃懒做呢！！！

一单又一单。。。
该如何面对？？
这一单并不是小数目。。。
该怎么帮你呢？
都没钱了。。
辛辛苦苦赚来的钱早都被你弄到没钱了。。
一家开心开心的日子也被你害的不懂像什么了。。
你知道你很自私吗？
你有想过我们吗？
我真的很不明，为何你做的事都要我们承担呢！！！
为何？虽然有血缘关系但你也不可以这样一次又一次的害我们。。。

每次只会说大话！！
有钱也不是你有钱啦。。。
那些钱都是我们3兄妹和爸妈一起赚的。。
请你问问自己。。你有为这个家付出过吗？？
你有资格和我们一起住吗？人家搬家你也死要脸跟。。
每天只会享受。。让别人都以为你是有钱人。。。
说实在的。。你是个不要脸的穷光蛋！！！
爸妈帮你这么多了。。你没感激也就算了。。
现在又做出这些东西。。
你真是个乌龟王八蛋。。。

还以为你会悔改。。
真是让我们伤心。。
爸妈的心已被你弄得伤痕累累了。。。
你以为妈还能像以前那么拼赚钱吗？
你又不是不懂她整身病。。
为了要省钱医生也不去看。。
爸的年宁也不大了。。
请问他们要怎样再帮你！！！
好心你不要再害我们了啦。。
我还在读书。。需要钱。。
而且妹又在国外。。需要更加多的钱。。
你没帮这个家我们都不会怪你的。。
我只希望你不要再带麻烦给我们就好了。。
儿子都这么大了。。请你反醒啦。。
尽点身为父亲的责任吧！！！
还有请改掉死人脾气，戒赌和烟。。
我们全家人都讨厌这些。。
请你记住！！！

昨天，某人说：“她几时才会斯文点”。。
听到这句话。。就觉得应该很难改吧。。
因为那是真实的她。。
“人总是不会改的”。。
哈哈。。
她讨厌做作的人。。