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2010-04-01T19:13:00.002+08:00

~~~hOt TemPer~~~~

Again and again...HOT TEMPER....
i should not speaked so loud wif my lovely mum...I SHOULD NOT...
but....im lost of control when she called me during my sleeping time and talked something that i not like...
after ended the call start to feel regret for what i did...
i wanna say sorry wif her but i not dare to call back her.....im not usual to do this kind of thing especially to my lovely family...but now it makes me not feeling well at all....

WHAT SHOULD I DO????

i know she also has the same feeling now as me as i speak so loud wif her....
she sure will feel sad d...but i reli not dare to say sorry wif her le...
haiz....it makes me regret wat i did.....

so i just can say here...Mummy sorry for wat i did...i shd not talk so loud wif u d...is my fault..reli sorry...

HOT TEMPER makes me crazy sometimes but i ed try my best to change it...
however, sometimes reli lost of control d...haiz...
i think i shd totally change my hot temper d...

To my parent:
SOrry for everything dat i did that have hurt both of u...
i will try my best to change it...give me sometimes...
i really feel glad to have both of u as my parent d...
I LOVE U MUMMY N DADDY and ALL MY SIBLINGS...

~is in a bad feeling~

2010-01-31T18:34:00.014+08:00

longtime did not updated my blog already but today after i saw something i do not know how to express and share my feeling to my friend and i just feel hurt and sad..
aiks....aiks...aiks....@_**
haiz...i am facing a problem again~~!!how should i speak out??
what should I do in order to voice up my unhappiness regarding this kind of issue???
i really wana let someone know....
"Do you know your existence brings me a lot of troublesome????
Do you know your actions will hurt me???
Don't you feel that your actions very fake in the eye of other people??? maybe you think it is nothing but have you think on behalf of other people??? HAVE YOU???
Don't you think you are super expert in acting pity and lonely???
Keep acting like you are the one who gets HURT!!! make other feel that I am a bad person and keep wan me do something in order to has interaction with you... why is my fault?? why????? why should I do that?"
Do you know how important they all for me?? regardless who they are..all of them are very important in my heart i cannot because of you then lost all of them???????~~~!!!
But i am wondering why all of them very like u this fake people...isn't u too clever in acting? while i am not that kind of expert???
keep saying " we are longtime friends, don't you know my attitude??"..
this is my answer: coz i know u well so i know you are which type of people...
I really this issue can stop in my mind~~~!!!!....................................
..................................................................................................................
.......................................................im speechless with your action~~!!!!!!!

99% true~!!

2009-06-27T15:22:00.002+08:00

Today,i was like normal days click into my mail box and saw a mail with the title of "从生日判断你是什么脾气‏"..

With the wish want to know whether it is true or not, thus i have clicked into this mail and scroll down to search for my birthday day...

when found my birthday day then i was carefully read through the details and i found that it is really accurate..

all the words is describing me with none of it that make me feel is incorrect...
this is what has described me..

==>>不笑的时候，显得冷酷与淡漠，其实内心隐藏热情，具长辈缘，也会得同辈与晚辈的喜爱与拥戴。不过，因为完美主义的倾向，而考虑太多难以下决定。对于讨厌的人，会毫不保留地加以唾弃，讨厌不公平的事情发生。

especially 对于讨厌的人，会毫不保留地加以唾弃 so better don't be a person that i hate~~!!!haha...

yet i'm wondering really can determine a person just from birthday day??
however, if you really know well about me sure you will agree with the above blue sentence which is describing me..but it seems like excluded one more sentence ed.."is a lazy boom"~~~!
haha..

c2p human being

2009-06-15T20:06:00.004+08:00

there is different type of human being in our world~~
actually i olso do not exactly know how many type it's exist in our world.. i have a very BIG question mark for this question!!!
however, i can see that there is few types of different people that are surrounding us..
these can be categorized into :
1) a person who really treat you as he/her best friend and without any motive.
2) a person who treats you as friend with a motive.
3) a person who is acting as your best friend in front you but talking your bad things behind.
4) a person who acts as a good person in front of someone.
5) a person who likes to act at everytimes.
6) ....etc
The first type of people is worth to be treated as best friend, BUT as we know it's quite difficult to have all friends which are under this categorized. This is because every human is selfish, they just care about themselves and do not think about others.
Furthermore, some people treated you as good friend is caused you got the value for them, and when you are non-value for them, they will just kick you away. This type of human is not worth to be treated as good friend and we should have a distance with them. Sometimes most of us will meet a friend who is acting as our good friend but they are talking your bad things with other and do anything that injur you. Most of this happened when they are jealous with you,especially when you have a good relationship with someone. At this time, they will keep talking about you with other or even with your best friend. They purpose is to break down your relationship. Therefore,must be aware of this type of people. Unfortunately, we do not know whether someone is fallen under which categorized before be friend with them, as we just can see their real face after as a friend~~!! This is the most scary thing in the world~~
I'm very curious why got so many type of people?? why they cannot treat everyone equally or fairly and why must break other relationship. The BIG question for me is non the above at all, the above is just a small question mark for me~~@@

the big question mark for me right now is " WHY MUST A PERSON ACTING TO LET OTHER FEEL HE/SHE IS A GOOD PERSON"..That's why sometimes i prefer to be alone but for me i cannot live without any friend...Lucikly i got my best friend, who i know they wont do anything that will hurt me~~!! i really love them~~~

FinAlly

2009-06-04T23:17:00.003+08:00

-finally-

finally, im a last year student ed...
when in foundation, i keep thinking of::
-can i finish my foundation?
-will i pass all the paper with no resit and repeat?
the same questions keep pop in my mind that force me to study hard...
and with the "ri lian da sheng ren" bless..i was passed my foundation with the a not bad result..

after in degree...
the same questions were around me~~!!
-when i will graduate?
-hope that i will graduate next sem?
-when see all the senior friends graduated, i feel happy for them?
-..........
these all questions make me to faint....but finally now in year three ed..
actually quick happy..@_@

so last year ed...i need to fight with all the papers~~!!
now, the thesis make me sot ed..
actually, i duno wat to do with this thesis~~!!
where should we start?
wat topic should we do?
really is a Blank~~QQ
haiz...
hope i can get a topic soon...
and successfully finish dis thesis...

ChaRlie gambate!!~~
kerpei,teoh n phaik yin let us gambate together ya..
all the best in the future~~!!

伤心~~

2009-04-05T10:35:00.002+08:00

妈的身体越来越弱了。。
该如何是好呢？
我能帮的就是帮她顾店。。但只能在星期五，六和日。。
现在工人又要回了，没人能和她一起了。。
真是烦人。。
为何什么事情都发生在我家能？
我还是个学生，没钱。。什么都帮不到。。
为有努力的读书。。
还有一年多我能顺利的毕业吗？（笨蛋的我）。。
好想。。马上毕业。。酱就能减轻她的负担了。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
烦人！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
乌龟的哥哥。。
为何另个哥哥可以自己赚钱，不会害家人。。
为何你就不能呢？？
为何。。。要好吃懒做呢！！！

为何人总是不会改的呢！！！！

2009-04-04T13:11:00.003+08:00

一单又一单。。。
该如何面对？？
这一单并不是小数目。。。
该怎么帮你呢？
都没钱了。。
辛辛苦苦赚来的钱早都被你弄到没钱了。。
一家开心开心的日子也被你害的不懂像什么了。。
你知道你很自私吗？
你有想过我们吗？
我真的很不明，为何你做的事都要我们承担呢！！！
为何？虽然有血缘关系但你也不可以这样一次又一次的害我们。。。

每次只会说大话！！
有钱也不是你有钱啦。。。
那些钱都是我们3兄妹和爸妈一起赚的。。
请你问问自己。。你有为这个家付出过吗？？
你有资格和我们一起住吗？人家搬家你也死要脸跟。。
每天只会享受。。让别人都以为你是有钱人。。。
说实在的。。你是个不要脸的穷光蛋！！！
爸妈帮你这么多了。。你没感激也就算了。。
现在又做出这些东西。。
你真是个乌龟王八蛋。。。

还以为你会悔改。。
真是让我们伤心。。
爸妈的心已被你弄得伤痕累累了。。。
你以为妈还能像以前那么拼赚钱吗？
你又不是不懂她整身病。。
为了要省钱医生也不去看。。
爸的年宁也不大了。。
请问他们要怎样再帮你！！！
好心你不要再害我们了啦。。
我还在读书。。需要钱。。
而且妹又在国外。。需要更加多的钱。。
你没帮这个家我们都不会怪你的。。
我只希望你不要再带麻烦给我们就好了。。
儿子都这么大了。。请你反醒啦。。
尽点身为父亲的责任吧！！！
还有请改掉死人脾气，戒赌和烟。。
我们全家人都讨厌这些。。
请你记住！！！

昨天，某人说：“她几时才会斯文点”。。
听到这句话。。就觉得应该很难改吧。。
因为那是真实的她。。
“人总是不会改的”。。
哈哈。。
她讨厌做作的人。。

ailks...why i so stupid d!!!

2009-03-20T09:49:00.003+08:00

stupid charlie~~
the questions are so easy, u also can do mistake!!!!!
still said easy and know how to do!!!
somemore so fast left exam hall~~~u tought u really so geng meh!!!
heng r!!! how come i can did it wrongly???
how come??? now also don't know how many questions were used that formula.....
don't know how many marks i will lost...but even one mark also important for me le!!!haiz...
actuallly, i already understand all the particular topics and all the formulas were in my mind ed....now also can remember all the formulas...
but why??
i can did it wrongly!!!
just can say me too careless and stupid ed..
i should not do this mistake d...should not!!!
the questions are not tought!!!! somemore i calculated two times ed...haiz
is me careless...make me no mood now....

the moral that i get from this time is see clearly before answering the questions..
dont make myself regret anymore and lost the marks....
the most important thing is CANNOT LEAVE THE HALL early...must wait till end of exam!!!
remember charlie!!!!

boring life~~~

2009-03-19T17:07:00.002+08:00

boring r....
do not what to do r...
study? feel wanna relax as just finish tests and assignments..
sleep? do not feel sleepy..
paly? do not wan play what...ed played game til sien..
watch drama? do not wan watch wat drama..if i choose to watch drama then sure cham d la..no ned eat,sleep and do homework ed..
go out? lazy to go...
chat? chatting with frens now but feel sien oso...

WHAT SHOULD I DO????
WAHT SHOULD I DO???? ++++====>>> SIEN r..

think wanna msg him but he is working now....
sure din reply me d..
somemore if reply after his works then oso few sentences oly...
so better dun wan msg him...
argh!!!!!!

i wan go back...
miss my parents, my lovely home, my bed and my toilet....
haiz...must wait 2moro just can back r...
sien diao yao sei r...
who can help me???????

yuppy!!!i got an idea~~~

2009-03-18T23:23:00.004+08:00

haha..stupid me, owez waste time to do something for him..hehe..
but i think should be valueable ba...
wat i will do for this time le..hehe..
it is not a secret but it is a secret to him...@_@

in this few weeks, i keep thinking what i wan to do in this coming sem break le..
think for few weeks ed...
finally i got an idea...
i wan make a birthday cake for him..
so most probably i will use this sem break time to learn how to do a birthday cake...
although his birthday is still far away but i think it is the suitable time for me to start learn ed..
because i know myself dont have much time to learn as i still need to work also and do it correctly plus delicious in a short time period..
therefore, i should start in this coming sem break..hehe..
i can't wait for this coming holidays ed..
i tell myself that i must learn it probably and pratice until i can do it..
actually, i want do his favorite cake but my fren told me i should learn how to do tiramisu..
as they said tiramisu just can show the feelings..haha..tat's y confusing..hehe..
but i think i will follow what they said ba..hehe..

btw,my lovely friend said wan record down my effort in learning and doing the cake to let him see my effort...(thx to her o, love u)
but i think this is not the most important that i want from making this cake..
i just wan him feel my real effort and heart....
hehe..hope he can feel it...
i hope he will like it..

waiting that day....
hope i reli got that time to do and achieve the target that i was set....

charlie gambate!!

why all the thing was happend in the same way??

2009-03-16T15:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday, i was attended a friend b'day party...
at there, i realised one thing was happened...
as i guess, he was very sad at yesterday night ba..(xx, am i right?)
keep see the girl that he likes was forcing by others to take photo with xx...
and he just can see over there, cannot do anything that he wants to do, as he and she just a normal friend...
actually, i just wan tell him that " i know your feelings"...
it like the heart was pierced by the knife.. it is very pain....
but, i really don't know that..
why he can pretend nothing was happened!!! (very geng lo)...
if for me...i will silent and sit over there or choose to chat with other friend and don't want see what they are doing there..haha..
anyway, just hope he can faster recover and happy forever la...hehe...

god please faster let him find his true love ba..jia you o...

omg~~his stress is coming ed...

2009-03-07T15:30:00.003+08:00

finally he was sent by company to oversea ed...
actually this is a great thing, which he should feel happy...
but as i know this will make him feel suffer and stress when going to work at oversea next time...
as he needs to determine:
1) what stocks can attract Malaysia people?
2) isn't this stocks will be sales in M'sia?
3) how much sholud it sales?
4)....n lotz...
i think all of this consideration will make him crzay ba...but i trust at him that he can handle all of this...
because he is not a stupid person..he got his own thinking of doing business...
so sure he can d..
i just hope that he can know "everything also have their own problem jsut see how we going to solve it only~~~and every problem has their own solution just c whether we manage to find the solution or not"
so i wan to tell him "zai, dun feel stress just do whatever u think is correct...believe urself u can settle everything that given by ur uncle...the most important thing is i believe at u"

ailks...suddenly very miss him pula...
don't know how is he at there???
after work sure very boring d as i know his attitude...
but i couldnt accompany him and i cant call him as well...
just hope he is in the good condition lo...
miss u o..
all the best~~
kick away all the stress that is surrounding u~~~kick kick kick

my taxation gone ed~~

2009-03-04T19:08:00.002+08:00

omg~~im just finished my taxation test...
actually should feel happy after test but im in a moody situation as i did it very poor~~~
how come i can forget all things that i was studied??
and what i was focused are not tested....
but came out with all theories that i was simply go through d...
sad diao..
it's 20% of the final marks....
reli gone jor le la...
aiks...

~i love my mummy~

2009-03-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

erm, it was happened on Saturday night...

after back from work, i was felt hungry and went to kitchen for a milo, and my mum was standing beside me to have her drink also..
at that moment, we started to chat regarding my sister situations in Aus...
from the moment we chat i feel like want ask mummy to sponsor me some money to buy a dress for ball night but i was no dare to ask as i know she will scold me because me going to spend money again...
so, im thinking to tell her in a indirect way..hehe..(jia dao bao)
after few minutes of our conversation, i told mum that...
"mum, do u know im going to a ball night which held by our school in the following monday? besides, this maybe is the last year for having this ball night in Kuala Lumpur so i was decided to go with my friends...but the problem that i facing now is i don't have enough money to afford a dress for that night as it maybe expensive or maybe i want buy other things. So, mum can u sponsor me a bit? "
after i told my mum, then she is laughing at me and ask how much i need for the dress that i want? and u already find the dress that u like?
then i tell her " actually i haven't go and see any dress because i don't have money to buy"..haha
after she heard then she think for a while and said she knows for a ball night dress is quite expensive and asked me again how much of money i wan her sponsor?
then i just silent and looking at her...then she said isnt 1++ sth is enough for u?
and i answered her "shd be enough for me ba"..
(actually i just wan my mum sponsor me 50 bucks only..haha..too bad..)
however, she didn't said that she really will sponsor me..then i was thinking she maybe joking wif me jek as she don't like me always buy clothes...

after one hour later, she came in my room and asked me to do her a favor..
after she told me what shd i do, then i asked again "mum, u reli will sponsor me d ho"
then she said ball night dress is really expensive d le...
and i said "i know but...(smiling at her)"
after that, she told me that i will give u *** 2moro but u cannot spend all of the money...ok?
from the moment she was agreed to sponsor me, i feel very happy and very love my mum as this is the first time she didn't scold me for asking her to sponsor me for a dress...

wah, it's really great that i get the sponsor from her...
i wan to tell my mummy that, "mummy i really love u o"..wakaka...

and today i really bought a black long dress ed..
i like the dress but after i bought i feel like its too mature ed la..
how r?should i wear on that day? but i gt a feel wanna go and buy a new one but if let my mum knows then she will scold and kill me le...
gt a uncertainty here~~~
tarzan dress, should i wear u? a(pointless)haha

*-*

decoration of birthday card~~~

2009-02-26T19:07:00.005+08:00

this is my first time design a birthday card for my best friend (mary)..

it spend me around 2 to 3 hours to complete it...

so Ms. slim mary you should feel touch that i did this card for you lo..haha..

do you know this is first time i do this..haha..

somemore is do for you while not the B guy o..

see in my heart you are more important than him...(do u think so?)

are you touch from what im saying??

sure touch le...

faster cry la...hehe...

must keep properly of this card wo...

and this consider as your birthday present d lo..

me got heart d..i did the present by my ownself..hehe

anyways,

Mary...happy birthday ya..

may your dreams come true and all the best~~

between,faster find your "white horse" and get married le..

i know u had been waiting for longtime for your Mr.Right ed right?

i know what you are thinking d..

by the way, let me sing a song for u..

happy birthday to you..

happy birthday to Ms.slim mary..

happy birthday to you...

happy le because i keep mention "slim"

haha...

enjoy your birthday lo~~~

p/s: stupid me la...after done just realise did wrong...

is 21 st not 21th..

stupid charlie..

mary sorry o...

finally im heard from my lovely sister~~~

2009-02-25T22:30:00.002+08:00

hehe...
im feel happy now...
because i just get news from my sister...
luckily she got on to facebook and noticed that i left her a message..
therefore, i got the news from her...
she told me that she is fine at there..
just havent found accomodation yet as it is not easy to find accomodation over there...
and that chinese girl who going together with her already found a single room for herself..
now leave my sister and that malay girl ba..and maybe those chinese guys also ba...
although she and the malay girl are from different culture and background...but i hope that they can take care of each other as what chinese people says "at house we need to depend on family while at outside we need to depend on friends"..so hope they can do as according to that sentence...
between, she told me that her legs are going to break already as the road at sydney very steep...
hope that she can faster comfort the environment over there la because she needs to stay there for four years...
the most important that im happy to hear from her is she asked me don't need to worry her as she will take care of herself...hope she can do as what she said la...then me not need everydays worry about "how is my sister today?"...
really hope she can learn independent over there..
i think i should start to believe her as she can take care herself and always in a good condition...
this is what my "boss" told me d..

i asked him if ur sister/brother go oversea study..u will not worry about them?
he told me that he will not as he knows his families are always in good conditions..
so i think i should learn from him...always trust that my families are always in good conditions...
thanks to "boss" telling me this lo...
thanks..

now, just hope she can faster found the accomodation and settle down everythings that make her troublesome because her class is starting soon d..

p/s: my dear god (zhi lian da shen ren)...
1:you must take care of ling over there..
2:faster let her found a suitable accomodation and faster comfort with there's environment...
3:achieve what she wants in her life..
4:complete her study with a good result..
and last not least
please always make sure that she is in a good condition..
thanks god~~~
muacks~~~

haiz...could not go~

2009-02-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

sien diao....
me could not go to my best friend 21th year old birthday party which held at neways and located at subang~~~
feel sad cannot enjoy with them for this wonderful day...@_@
really hope can go now but no choice i did not drive my car back sg. long for this week...
all is because of the stupid "opcile"... if not because of her sure i will have car and i can straight away go after my audit test...all due to her let me cannot go...settle a small thing also so slow!!!
how to deal with big business??
stupid "almya", really stupid~~~really wan bit her...

argh...i wan go enjoy and have fun with them..
miss them so much..
miss the crazy time and actions...
why im always absent for so many events de....
make me have less fun time with them...
sometime really feel regret did not go out with them....
im absent so many times d...

who can fetch me go??
they don't know where is here...so i could not call them come..
im scare they will lost when come here...
between, all of them got work tomorrow...
haiz...

god r god...helps me..helps...

p/s: our lovely boss (jesse/cheong)..
wish u have a wonderful and unforgettable 21th birthday o...
may your dreams come true and faster find a girl friend to take care you ba..
you old already d..haha..
between, im sorry that i could nor attend your birthday party..
feel sad and sorry...

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to jin cheong..
happy birthday to u..
muaks..love u~~~

im cry when my sister left M'sia~~~

2009-02-23T20:51:00.000+08:00

i miss my sister so much...
on 21 of march, my sis was flied to Australia to complete her study over there~~~
i thought i won't cry when send her....
i think i will very tough on that day..
but at last im crying at the moment she is going into the center....

on 20 of march, six of her friends came to our house to find my sister and chat with her...
at the moment i already felt uncomfortable because i know she is going to Aus tomorrow...
but i control myself because i don't want she sad as well...
at that night, my 2nd brother and his girlfriend also came to our house as they want to see my sister for the last time before my sister leave M'sia...
and we asked him "are you going with us to send ling" and he said "see how first"..
(actually he wants to go d)..hehe...
my brother "bu she de" also d..just did not show it out~~~

on 21 of march, we went to airport at 4.15pm and stay there over more than 4 hours because 10.45pm she just will fly from M'sia..
(at last minutes before we left our house my brother told my daddy that he is coming back to house as want to send my sister as well...haha...at last he olso come..thanks kor for sending ling also)
at there i keep walked along with her...coz i feel bu she de...as she will leave me for few years...
when she is busying for check-in her laguage, her friends came to airport send her as well and gave her presents..
im really thanks to 10 of her friends who went to airport~~~
thanks to you all sending my sister....
after she checked her laguage then we went to have a last dinner with her before she is leaving us~~~
after that we walked to the place that all JPA students gather to go in to center....
after listened to the briefing then she get her passport and slowly wait in the center...
at the moment, i already cannnot control myself...
im start to cry as she is really leaving me and our family ed....
until non-stop and i also saw my sister like crying and feel bu she de at downstair also...
but what can we do...
just wait her to complete her study and back M'sia..

actually,i know she is going there to complete her study and i should feel proud of her..
but what should i do?
im worry of her as im normally take care of her when she was beside me...
and now she is going alone over there and our family cannot take care of her for 4years..
really worry about her...
as i don't know what she is doing now?
don't know whether she already found the hostel?
can she comforts the living style over there?
are the foods over there suitable for her?
and.....
i really want to know this all things because i did not see her on9 so i cannot get answer for these all questions..
i hope she can faster find the hostel and keep contact with us...

my lovely sister~~you must take care of yourself and keep contact with is o...
must enjoy your study life over there and get flying result back..
we all waiting you to come back...
don't give yourself too much of stress o...
just do your best...sister belive you can do it well d...
remember we all LOVE you~~~

feel sad~~

2009-02-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

story of cinderella

2009-02-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

on the 4th days of Chinese New Year.
i went to PD wif my banting geng..
actually there are nothing for us to play...
we ed gambling for whole day + drink sufficient alcohol~~
at the moment (nite), some of my frens are playing mahjong, me n another fren feel boring so we went in the master room n read the novel...
while reading the novel we think dat we should not read novel over there bcz we come here is to enjoy while not read novel over there..
so we started to think wat shd v do for dat moment...
after few mins then v walked in the other room to find other frens n think off wat v can do n play beside than gambling n mahjong~~~
few mins was passed, then one of my frens looks at a couple of our frens and think y not v act drama which is "bai xue gong zhu"..
n non of us was disagree wif him..
so our happy moment is started ed...(crazy in acting n being actor)
n here is the attached of one of the video..
this is the second video dat v act..which is "cinderella"
n im the cinderella..
wahaha...but is a casual actor...who totally forget wat cinderella story talking about...
i think non of my frens who involved in this drama wil knw im uploading this video ba..
if nt me GG lo．．haha
besides, i wan to tell all of them...
"i love u all" , thz to be my good frens..
hope our relationships can be forever n ever~~~

续。。

2009-02-18T20:14:00.000+08:00

在女孩挣扎的几天后，
她觉得应该再次鼓起勇气向B 表达自己对他的心意。。
因为她怕再不说的话。。
可能有天她会后悔，那时就可能什么都失去了。。
但她又怕说了。。。得到的并不是她要的答案！！
而影响了他们的友谊。。
说也不是，不说也不是。。该怎么样呢！！！
但很庆幸的是，在她的犹疑中有几位好友默默的支持与鼓励她。。
让她觉得应该勇敢的去实现她想要的一确。。。
就在29 日。。
女孩和她的好友一块去了一个可以让人放松心情的世界。。
在那晚，她以打算要告诉B。。
时间一分一秒的过去。。
到了2am，她还是没办法勇敢的走过去告诉B。。。
所以她宣告了“计划失败”。。
就因为失败让她又失去了信心。。。而觉得不必告诉B了。。
但第二天。。。
有位好友告诉她说：
“如果有90％不会成功的话，
那你还有10％会成功，
但如果你选择不说的话，
那唯一的10％就会等于0％”
所以，她想了想说既然有那几％就该再试看看。。不要浪费了那几％。。
于是，在31日。。。
她下定决心，无论如何今晚一定要告诉B。。
所以晚上又和几位好友去了另位好友的店。。要在那迎接新的一年（2009）。。
就在那坐着吃喝。。过了12点晚上她还是没机会单独的和B说话。。
过了一段时间，她的朋友们又开始学“数学”了。。
但这次B没有和他们一起学。。。
这次女孩也像平时一样和一位朋友一起学。。。但她的心完全没在学“数学”那。。
她的心一直在想要如何告诉B，但更糟的是还帮朋友“答错答案”。。。
还甚至想到。。她家人来找她也不回。。。。
为了就是等待机会的降临。。。
等了好友学了很多次的数学后她还是没有勇气叫B出去。。
就在女孩的家人一直叫女孩回家时。。。
她才有机会开口叫男孩先载她回家。。就这样让她有机会和B单独的在一起一会。。
但在车上女孩始终都没开到口。。直到到她家门前。。
她才问男孩“你可不可以在转几圈，因为我有话要对你说”。。。
转了一会，女孩还是不知如何开口。。。但男孩好像已知女孩要和他说什么了。。
所以就一直静静的想逃开话题吧！
在女孩思考后，
她终于都问B“你愿不愿意给次机会给我呢！”。。而不敢说出“我喜欢你”这四个字。。
谁知女孩还是得到了她不想要的答案。。
但。。B只是说“是我的问题。。所以到现在都没交往”。。
然后就默默的没出声了。。
其实，女孩早已知道她酱会得到同样的答案但她还是选择亲耳听到男孩对她说。。。
伤心的她下了车，走进家。。
然后躺在床上发信息想要再次问男孩。。
但男孩却叫她不要想这件事了。。要她早点睡。。。
女孩问男孩“我真的不知要做些什么”。。
男孩回答说“你什么都不用做，我会解决”。。
女孩到现在都很想知道男孩想解决些什么。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
最后，女孩告诉男孩说“我会等你的”。。

现在只希望男孩还记得女孩说的话。。
不要让她等太久。。。

p/s~~希望想爱的人能够永远在一起～～

valentine~

2009-02-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

today is valetine day..
but im still yet single..haiz...
haha...but anyway, jz treat it as normal day lo..
one day later i oso will have my valentine day d...im jz waiting answer from him~~

when he jx will give me answer le...i had been waiting for nearly 3 years ed...
so tired to wait the answer from him...but i knw i will not give up easily d...i will wait until i get the real answer from him...

now im just scared he too stressful only...
i don't even want he so stress,but wat can i do for him??
i couldn't help him for anything...i couldn't..cz im useless actually~~~
i hope i can change my useless to useful!!! but when jz i can change it??
im too lazy ed..owez keep play wif others n like to waste time~~
life is unexpected~~~~

life is nt owez go wif wat v want...
so v mz accept everything dat happen to us and take it as experience....
don't let it happen again in our life, try to prevent it~~~

GG lo...hvnt do my assignment yet~~fan r..don't know how to do..wakaka

hOw???

2009-01-30T16:33:00.001+08:00

longtime didn't update my blog ed~~
today i will update it is because i don't know what should i do in order to help B to reduce his burden...
looking him for this few days,i felt that he got a lotz of things to think and didn't have the solution to settle his problem~~~
i really hope that i can help him to think the solution,but i don't know what is really going on so i can't think off the solution for him...
if he still keep thinking this, i really scare he will fall down one day later..
i don't wanna see him fall down..
actually he is not a normal guy, he got a special attitude,thinking and ideas just don't have the chance to show it out~~
that's why im thinking what should i do to help him..
between im still a student what should i do for...
i can't help him~~i hope i can faster graduate and help him to show out his expert~~~
hope god can bless me~~~
and i hope he can share everythings with me...either happy nor sad...

tHe MoSt sAd ThiNg iN tHe WorLd

2008-12-30T11:56:00.000+08:00

omg~~~
i just realise that im not wearing my ring...
mayb i ed lost it in somewhere else that i don't know...
mayb in the supperclub~~
or..i don't know...
but i hope i reli leave in the bath room...
if not it very become a sad thing for me~~
n i don't even know who to say wif "ting" that i ed lost the ring tat it's a pair of ring!!!
haiz....
my lovely ring pls come back find me...
i cannot live without you~~~
@_@

一个傻女孩的爱情故事

2008-12-29T14:46:00.000+08:00

八年前，有个女孩和他最喜欢的男孩(A)在一起。。
那知她怕家人会反对，所以无原因的向A提出了分手。。。
使到A伤心绝望。。
分手后A整个人都变了。。变得女孩都快认不出他了。。
谁也不知，其实那女孩还是很爱他的。。但。。。，只能说他们无缘吧！！！
过了两年，A又追求回那个傻女孩。。。
那傻女孩不想再次失去他了。。于是，她选择瞒着父母继续和A交往。。。
但，想不到最后他们还是以无原因而分手。。
不同的是,轮到A向她提出分手。。。

这次的分手令到那女孩受到很大的打激，令到她不敢在接受任何的感情。。
因此，改变了女孩的想法。。。她想要努力，奋斗去得到他想要的一确。。。
一年，两年，三年，。。就这样过去了。。。
那女孩终于也上了大学。。。慢慢的想完成她的梦想。。
在她努力奋斗的过程中，他遇到了另一个她喜欢的对象(B男孩)。。。
她大概已喜欢B两三年了吧！！
现在，他们两已是一班的好朋友了。。。但，这好像不是那女孩想要的。。。
那女孩想要分享B所有开心和伤心的事。。
不想看到他伤心与寂寞。。。
其实，一年多前女孩已经暗示过B了。。但，她还是不清楚B的想法。。。
暗示后确得不到反应。。女孩觉得很痛苦而想尝试放弃。。
于是，在她痛苦中遇到了一个性格与他很像的男孩(C)。。
让这女孩表错情。。以为那是爱情。。。其实，那并不算爱情吧！！
很庆幸的是，他们俩并没在一起。。
但，那女孩还是尽了全力去帮助C。。。
在几个月的宁静思考后，女孩还是没有办法忘记B。。
所以，她选择了继续偷偷的喜欢B。。
就像。。温胜光的“我只能偷偷的喜欢你”。。
“ 一场美丽的友情是如何开始

一场美丽的爱情是如何散落

女孩记得想对B开口

但害怕

只能在心中打转而保持沉默

每次偷偷看他迷人的眼眸

每次偷偷看他温柔的微笑

可是B从来都不知女孩的心中

早晚为了见他心情多么开心

女孩想她是已经被B着迷

不然她的心都不会如此怪异

现在的她只能偷偷喜欢B

她只希望能看见B

多想要对着手机告诉B

好想你哦

她只希望作B唯一

如果他需要人陪,女孩陪他

她期待能和B开心一起”
因为B从不和她表示任何事。。
有时女孩会觉得B是喜欢她的，但有时又觉得不是。。
所以现在的她是活在迷糊里。。她想要那男孩救救她。。
但她确不懂B是否知道她现在的心情。。。
她好想让B知道但不知如何开口。。
谁能救救她呢？？？？

安静的一天

2008-12-28T14:40:00.000+08:00

12月28日
今天的我还是一样。。心情不是很好。。
昨晚（凌晨）和今早又收到子弹。。。
但这次我没把子弹丢回给她。。
因为我知道如果我丢回的话，他会发更加多的子弹所以只好安静的收子弹。。
从昨天开始我就已经打算不和任何人说话。。。
但是今早BC来问“我昨晚去了哪里？？”
本来不打算回应他的但想了想还是回答了他。。
他问我为何把手机给关了。。
让他们打不进给我。。。但我可以发誓我没有关过手机。。
是我的手机吃错药所以才会发生这个误会！！
可是从起身到现在我一句话都没和SC说过。。
这是我第一次酱久都没和他说话。。（当收完子弹后）
其实。。。
昨晚我和5个朋友喝完茶后就回家了。。
但昨晚心情也很糟所以一到家后，就知道他们去了附近朋友家学“数学”。。
所以想发泄就和他们一块去了。。
不知不觉玩到了早上四点。。
所以就得收子弹了。。。
可能我是有点过分但我又不是去做坏事。。
只是在附近学“数学”而以。。。
还有不知道为何有这种××说自己的××去做×的。。
这是什么道理啊。。。
还有更离谱的是。。。难道朋友有了另一半，我们就不可以一起出去吗？
我们就不是朋友了吗？？
我还真的不懂她的头脑在想什么！！
真的是不愿意去相信别人。。
每个人都有自己的权利选择朋友啊！！
只要是交好的朋友就可以了啊！！
或许我得体谅她，因为最近真的有点烦。。
但也不可以随便什么的啊！！！
这世界真的有很多歪理！！！
～～～超多的～～～

hv you recover?

2008-12-27T18:36:00.001+08:00

may i know have u recover?
i reli hope i can hear from u...
i'm waiting for ur msg since yesterday nite...
mayb u r tired so dun wan disturb u..just wan u have enough rest....
but can u give me a msg let me know whether u ed recover or still sick?
even one msg is enuf for me...
look forward to..

++cHarLie++

痛苦的一天～～～

2008-12-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

今天又中枪了～～
为何总是爱乱发子弹呢？
可能我是真的做错事？
但为何你总是爱拿两个人做比较呢？
那有什么好处呢！
可能你喜欢吧！！但你有想过不是每个人都喜欢这种方式嘛！！
每个人都有自己的生活方式。。不一定要服从你的方式的。。。
只要没做坏事就可以了啊。。。
每个人都有自由的权利，所以你不可能限制任何人。。。
其实很多事情都不是你想象中的那样。。。你都没看清楚就乱下定义。。。
这会带来很多伤害的。。
更何况不可以凭一个人的外表来判断他人的性格。。。
你都不认识对方，要如何判断呢？
“如果他染头发就代表他是个不好的人吗？”
这是一个非常错的定义！！！！
每个人都会交不同的朋友，所以也不可以拿他们的朋友来做比较。。
都“ 两张” 了，不可能黑白不分吧！！！
会和那班朋友在一起就已经证明了，他们是“ 白” 的而不是“ 黑” 的。。。
你明白吗？
或许你是关心对方吧～但你有想过你用错方法了吗？
你有想过他要的是什么吗？可能你都不知道他想要什么。。。
或许他也不喜欢每天收子弹啊！！你也不需要每天发子弹吧～～～
如果在这样下去。。。后果会不堪设想的。。。
你要试着去相信他。。。可能你觉得他在撒谎但其实并不是。。。他可能在说实话只是你不愿去相信。。。相信他人是件很重要的事。。。
确记！！！！

~~my little world~~

~~rEgReTing~~

~~~is in a bad feeling~~~