~~my little world~~

sometimes i don't know how to express my true feeling!!Thus, i like to write it out~~~hope after that ,i will feel better and comfortable!!

tORtoIsE's bLoG~~~@@!!

~~i'm a pretty tortoise~~keke!!




this is my first time design a birthday card for my best friend (mary)..
it spend me around 2 to 3 hours to complete it...
so Ms. slim mary you should feel touch that i did this card for you lo..haha..
do you know this is first time i do this..haha..
somemore is do for you while not the B guy o..
see in my heart you are more important than him...(do u think so?)
are you touch from what im saying??
sure touch le...
faster cry la...hehe...
must keep properly of this card wo...
and this consider as your birthday present d lo..
me got heart d..i did the present by my ownself..hehe

anyways,
Mary...happy birthday ya..
may your dreams come true and all the best~~
between,faster find your "white horse" and get married le..
i know u had been waiting for longtime for your Mr.Right ed right?
i know what you are thinking d..
by the way, let me sing a song for u..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to Ms.slim mary..
happy birthday to you...

happy le because i keep mention "slim"
haha...

enjoy your birthday lo~~~
p/s: stupid me la...after done just realise did wrong...
is 21 st not 21th..
stupid charlie..
mary sorry o...

hehe...
im feel happy now...
because i just get news from my sister...
luckily she got on to facebook and noticed that i left her a message..
therefore, i got the news from her...
she told me that she is fine at there..
just havent found accomodation yet as it is not easy to find accomodation over there...
and that chinese girl who going together with her already found a single room for herself..
now leave my sister and that malay girl ba..and maybe those chinese guys also ba...
although she and the malay girl are from different culture and background...but i hope that they can take care of each other as what chinese people says "at house we need to depend on family while at outside we need to depend on friends"..so hope they can do as according to that sentence...
between, she told me that her legs are going to break already as the road at sydney very steep...
hope that she can faster comfort the environment over there la because she needs to stay there for four years...
the most important that im happy to hear from her is she asked me don't need to worry her as she will take care of herself...hope she can do as what she said la...then me not need everydays worry about "how is my sister today?"...
really hope she can learn independent over there..
i think i should start to believe her as she can take care herself and always in a good condition...
this is what my "boss" told me d..

i asked him if ur sister/brother go oversea study..u will not worry about them?
he told me that he will not as he knows his families are always in good conditions..
so i think i should learn from him...always trust that my families are always in good conditions...
thanks to "boss" telling me this lo...
thanks..

now, just hope she can faster found the accomodation and settle down everythings that make her troublesome because her class is starting soon d..

p/s: my dear god (zhi lian da shen ren)...
1:you must take care of ling over there..
2:faster let her found a suitable accomodation and faster comfort with there's environment...
3:achieve what she wants in her life..
4:complete her study with a good result..
and last not least
please always make sure that she is in a good condition..
thanks god~~~
muacks~~~

sien diao....
me could not go to my best friend 21th year old birthday party which held at neways and located at subang~~~
feel sad cannot enjoy with them for this wonderful day...@_@
really hope can go now but no choice i did not drive my car back sg. long for this week...
all is because of the stupid "opcile"... if not because of her sure i will have car and i can straight away go after my audit test...all due to her let me cannot go...settle a small thing also so slow!!!
how to deal with big business??
stupid "almya", really stupid~~~really wan bit her...

argh...i wan go enjoy and have fun with them..
miss them so much..
miss the crazy time and actions...
why im always absent for so many events de....
make me have less fun time with them...
sometime really feel regret did not go out with them....
im absent so many times d...

who can fetch me go??
they don't know where is here...so i could not call them come..
im scare they will lost when come here...
between, all of them got work tomorrow...
haiz...

god r god...helps me..helps...

p/s: our lovely boss (jesse/cheong)..
wish u have a wonderful and unforgettable 21th birthday o...
may your dreams come true and faster find a girl friend to take care you ba..
you old already d..haha..
between, im sorry that i could nor attend your birthday party..
feel sad and sorry...

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to jin cheong..
happy birthday to u..
muaks..love u~~~




i miss my sister so much...
on 21 of march, my sis was flied to Australia to complete her study over there~~~
i thought i won't cry when send her....
i think i will very tough on that day..
but at last im crying at the moment she is going into the center....

on 20 of march, six of her friends came to our house to find my sister and chat with her...
at the moment i already felt uncomfortable because i know she is going to Aus tomorrow...
but i control myself because i don't want she sad as well...
at that night, my 2nd brother and his girlfriend also came to our house as they want to see my sister for the last time before my sister leave M'sia...
and we asked him "are you going with us to send ling" and he said "see how first"..
(actually he wants to go d)..hehe...
my brother "bu she de" also d..just did not show it out~~~

on 21 of march, we went to airport at 4.15pm and stay there over more than 4 hours because 10.45pm she just will fly from M'sia..
(at last minutes before we left our house my brother told my daddy that he is coming back to house as want to send my sister as well...haha...at last he olso come..thanks kor for sending ling also)
at there i keep walked along with her...coz i feel bu she de...as she will leave me for few years...
when she is busying for check-in her laguage, her friends came to airport send her as well and gave her presents..
im really thanks to 10 of her friends who went to airport~~~
thanks to you all sending my sister....
after she checked her laguage then we went to have a last dinner with her before she is leaving us~~~
after that we walked to the place that all JPA students gather to go in to center....
after listened to the briefing then she get her passport and slowly wait in the center...
at the moment, i already cannnot control myself...
im start to cry as she is really leaving me and our family ed....
until non-stop and i also saw my sister like crying and feel bu she de at downstair also...
but what can we do...
just wait her to complete her study and back M'sia..

actually,i know she is going there to complete her study and i should feel proud of her..
but what should i do?
im worry of her as im normally take care of her when she was beside me...
and now she is going alone over there and our family cannot take care of her for 4years..
really worry about her...
as i don't know what she is doing now?
don't know whether she already found the hostel?
can she comforts the living style over there?
are the foods over there suitable for her?
and.....
i really want to know this all things because i did not see her on9 so i cannot get answer for these all questions..
i hope she can faster find the hostel and keep contact with us...

my lovely sister~~you must take care of yourself and keep contact with is o...
must enjoy your study life over there and get flying result back..
we all waiting you to come back...
don't give yourself too much of stress o...
just do your best...sister belive you can do it well d...
remember we all LOVE you~~~

on the 4th days of Chinese New Year.
i went to PD wif my banting geng..
actually there are nothing for us to play...
we ed gambling for whole day + drink sufficient alcohol~~
at the moment (nite), some of my frens are playing mahjong, me n another fren feel boring so we went in the master room n read the novel...
while reading the novel we think dat we should not read novel over there bcz we come here is to enjoy while not read novel over there..
so we started to think wat shd v do for dat moment...
after few mins then v walked in the other room to find other frens n think off wat v can do n play beside than gambling n mahjong~~~
few mins was passed, then one of my frens looks at a couple of our frens and think y not v act drama which is "bai xue gong zhu"..
n non of us was disagree wif him..
so our happy moment is started ed...(crazy in acting n being actor)
n here is the attached of one of the video..
this is the second video dat v act..which is "cinderella"
n im the cinderella..
wahaha...but is a casual actor...who totally forget wat cinderella story talking about...
i think non of my frens who involved in this drama wil knw im uploading this video ba..
if nt me GG lo..haha
besides, i wan to tell all of them...
"i love u all" , thz to be my good frens..
hope our relationships can be forever n ever~~~

在 女 孩 挣 扎 的几 天 后,
她 觉 得 应 该 再 次 鼓 起 勇 气 向B 表 达 自 己 对 他的 心 意。。
因 为 她 怕再 不 说 的 话 。。
可 能 有 天 她 会 后 悔, 那 时 就 可 能 什 么 都 失 去 了。。
但 她 又 怕 说 了。。。得 到 的 并 不 是 她 要 的 答 案 !!
而影 响 了 他 们 的 友 谊。。
说也不是,不说也不是。。该怎么样呢!!!
但很庆幸的是,在她的犹疑中有几位好友默默的支持与鼓励她。。
让她觉得应该勇敢的去实现她想要的一确。。。
就在29 日。。
女 孩 和 她 的 好 友 一 块 去 了 一 个 可 以 让 人 放 松 心 情 的 世 界。。
在那晚,她以打算要告诉B。。
时间一分一秒的过去。。
到了2am,她还是没办法勇敢的走过去告诉B。。。
所以她宣告了“计划失败”。。
就因为失败让她又失去了信心。。。而觉得不必告诉B了。。
但第二天。。。
有位好友告诉她说:
“如果有90%不会成功的话,
那你还有10%会成功,
但如果你选择不说的话,
那唯一的10%就会等于0%”
所以,她想了想说既然有那几%就该再试看看。。不要浪费了那几%。。
于是,在31日。。。
她下定决心,无论如何今晚一定要告诉B。。
所以晚上又和几位好友去了另位好友的店。。要在那迎接新的一年(2009)。。
就在那坐着吃喝。。过了12点晚上她还是没机会单独的和B说话。。
过了一段时间,她的朋友们又开始学“数学”了。。
但这次B没有和他们一起学。。。
这次女孩也像平时一样和一位朋友一起学。。。但她的心完全没在学“数学”那。。
她的心一直在想要如何告诉B,但更糟的是还帮朋友“答错答案”。。。
还甚至想到。。她家人来找她也不回。。。。
为了就是等待机会的降临。。。
等了好友学了很多次的数学后她还是没有勇气叫B出去。。
就在女孩的家人一直叫女孩回家时。。。
她才有机会开口叫男孩先载她回家。。就这样让她有机会和B单独的在一起一会。。
但在车上女孩始终都没开到口。。直到到她家门前。。
她才问男孩“你可不可以在转几圈,因为我有话要对你说”。。。
转了一会,女孩还是不知如何开口。。。但男孩好像已知女孩要和他说什么了。。
所以就一直静静的想逃开话题吧!
在女孩思考后,
她终于都问B“你愿不愿意给次机会给我呢!”。。而不敢说出“我喜欢你”这四个字。。
谁知女孩还是得到了她不想要的答案。。
但。。B只是说“是我的问题。。所以到现在都没交往”。。
然后就默默的没出声了。。
其实,女孩早已知道她酱会得到同样的答案但她还是选择亲耳听到男孩对她说。。。
伤心的她下了车,走进家。。
然后躺在床上发信息想要再次问男孩。。
但男孩却叫她不要想这件事了。。要她早点睡。。。
女孩问男孩“我真的不知要做些什么”。。
男孩回答说“你什么都不用做,我会解决”。。
女孩到现在都很想知道男孩想解决些什么。。。
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最后,女孩告诉男孩说“我会等你的”。。

现在只希望男孩还记得女孩说的话。。
不要让她等太久。。。

p/s~~希望想爱的人能够永远在一起~~

today is valetine day..
but im still yet single..haiz...
haha...but anyway, jz treat it as normal day lo..
one day later i oso will have my valentine day d...im jz waiting answer from him~~

when he jx will give me answer le...i had been waiting for nearly 3 years ed...
so tired to wait the answer from him...but i knw i will not give up easily d...i will wait until i get the real answer from him...

now im just scared he too stressful only...
i don't even want he so stress,but wat can i do for him??
i couldn't help him for anything...i couldn't..cz im useless actually~~~
i hope i can change my useless to useful!!! but when jz i can change it??
im too lazy ed..owez keep play wif others n like to waste time~~
life is unexpected~~~~

life is nt owez go wif wat v want...
so v mz accept everything dat happen to us and take it as experience....
don't let it happen again in our life, try to prevent it~~~

GG lo...hvnt do my assignment yet~~fan r..don't know how to do..wakaka